Second day of quarantine.

Its so eerily quiet outside. Streets are empty, no people roaming, no vehicles running, man its crazy. I do remember the time when it was like this before, but back then, it was caused by a storm. Now, every one is inside their homes and tryin to avoid the Covid 19. Coronavirus Disease 19 is currently a pandemic right now in Earth. Lots of people are getting infected and some have already died.

Stay safe Earth!

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hi there blog, its been a while again...

hmm, how do you say good bye to a month that basically made your year all worth it? It is like a saving grace. All of your hardship through the year wiped out by a single month, happiness is a bliss.

When the year started, I was falling apart, then I drifted further into oblivion, not knowing how to pick up the pieces of myself. I was so frustrated, uninspired, and I just wanted to drift away, far away from here, anywhere but here...(yeah, i don't care) For months, I've always felt the same, stay the course, and hope for the best. I was so passive.

Now I'm at a point, where I should be thankful but it is also with a melancholic heart that I have to part ways with this sweet November. Lots of memories were made in this month, ah the memories.

I was pondering with my thoughts this morning while I was riding the bus, thinking, in our lives, is there really such a right or wrong, good or bad choice? I argued with myself, foolishly, and i decided to just wing it and whisper, maybe there is no right or wrong choices at all, we just have to accept for what is given infront of us, make the best out of it, and no luck needed.

Why is it so hard?

Why am i over thinking?

Maybe because, I was moved.

Suddenly, everything had a sense again, life had a purpose. Mornings are brighter, evenings are better. No more sleepless nights and trying to figure out all the whys in my life.

Tough this month is nearing its end, I am happy, very happy. Life felt awesome once again.

Indeed, what a sweet November it is.

Yes moon, I heard you loud and clear.

Your description of me:

"Someone who knows the truth, sees the truth and yet I choose to believe in lies"

Perfect!

whoa...

i was drunk last night, i even smoked some cigarette..
oh the feelings...but then this morning, i was struck with such a strong lyrics from a song..

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Walking down 29th and park
I saw you in another’s arms
Only a month we’ve been apart
You look happier

Saw you walk inside a bar
He said something to make you laugh
I saw that both your smiles were twice as wide as ours
Yeah you look happier, you do

Ain’t nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain’t nobody love you like I do
Promise that I will not take it personal baby
If you’re moving on with someone new

Cause baby you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I’ll feel it too
And until then I’ll smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you

Sat in the corner of the room
Everything’s reminding me of you
Nursing an empty bottle and telling myself you’re happier
Aren’t you?

Ain’t nobody hurt you like I hurt you
But ain’t nobody need you like I do
I know that there’s others that deserve you
But my darling I am still in love with you

But I guess you look happier, you do
My friends told me one day I’ll feel it too
I could try to smile to hide the truth
But I know I was happier with you

Baby you look happier, you do
I knew one day you’d fall for someone new
But if he breaks your heart like lovers do
Just know that I’ll be waiting here for you

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oh the feels man, i think i need to drink a bottle again tonight..

Atlast, after a few weeks of being off-line, my blog is finally up again.

How many times are we gonna play the game,
thinkin that it's gonna change?

I wish I could somehow forget your face.
It ain't easy to turn and walk away.
So if I'm nothing to you, then everything is everything that you wanted.

How many times are you gonna make me pay, for my feelings that I can't deny?
You show me hope but then you take it away.
You keep me believing, it's somethin in your eyes.

But I'm feelin that anything can change.
Everything is everything that we make it.

I paid debt, and now I think I understand regret.
I guess it's time to be a man and face the time that I've spent hurting you.
How did I know I'd regret?

Oh, I've paid debt, and now I understand regret.
It's time to be a man and face all the time that I spent hurting you.
How could I know I would regret?

How did I let myself go? We've been down this road before, I've seen it.
I guess by now we should know, maybe this time we should leave it all behind.
I didn't know I was losing you.

when you realize how small the world really is...

May bukas na lilipas, muli sa ating buhay
Kung sakit ang dulot ng lahat, sana ay lumipas na

Sa isipa'y makikita, ang kahapong kay ganda
Sa kototohanan ito'y wala naman, pag-ibig ay lumipas na

Nagtatanong, kung nasaan na ba ako?

i wanna cry...

holding back these tears 'til i get home...

just pure emotions, i guess...